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Entries from September 2008

age and feeling late

September 28, 2008 · 3 Comments

It’s so strange to be looking through an artist’s website, to know that you’ve seen their name or images around a lot of sites/blogs/galleries/publications you respect, then finally look at their bio and their date of birth seems to catch you by surprise— BORN IN 1987??? WHAT?

Sometimes I feel so old and so behind.  I didn’t seriously start pursuing photography until a few years ago (less than 5) and I often feel as though I’m desperately trying to make up for lost time, whatever that really means.  I know that plenty of today’s most respected artists didn’t begin their careers until later in life, but that doesn’t really make me feel better.  I feel like the fact that I started such a short time ago calls into question my seriousness or legitimacy, makes me seem less worthy of respect no matter what my work looks like.  And the idea that I, unlike a lot of other photographers I read about, have not always had a deep-seated passion for photography (…since I emerged from the womb, I have been making images…) sometimes makes me feel like some sort of fraud.  I’m aware that that all of this is illogical and that it’s really about my own insecurities, and I know that I’m not at all old.  A lot of the age shock is really about envying others’ success (something I’ve been wanting to post about for a while) and instead of making me fret should push me to keep shooting and making new images.  This is something I’m definitely working on.

In related thoughts, here’s a truly spectacular image from someone born in 1987 (I have an image-crush on it today), Shane Lavalette:


Blue Moon Diner, Arundel, ME, 2007 © Shane Lavalette

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Tom Petit (1942-2008)

September 26, 2008 · 3 Comments

Today Steph and I are going to a memorial service for Tom Petit, longtime instructor at NESOP and my color fine art major instructor. He passed away almost 2 months ago but at first the news was just passed from person to person and then there was talk of a memorial service so I kept waiting to post here, kept waiting for the perfect time to pay tribute. I’m not sure there is ever a perfect time, but I feel bad about not saying anything until now.

At the 40th Anniversary Reception at NESOP, a slideshow of student/school life spanning the last several decades was on display. A few shots caught Tom being Tom, laughing, and they made me choke up a bit. I was glad to be able to catch him in his final year of teaching but I know I didn’t get even a fraction of the best of him— he started out the year not doing so well. We didn’t always see eye to eye (we have radically different ideas about what art can and should be), and in fact, I’m not sure how much he liked my work, but he respected my work ethic and he supported me. I admired his ability to not think too much and to create from his gut, to feel through his work— something I wish I could learn to do. One of his beautiful prints is on display at the NESOP show right now, one of his self-portraits that he shot in an abandoned asylum.

Here’s a picture I snapped of something he wrote on the board on one of the last weeks of school:

(As an artist, I am a maker of pictures. Artist Statement. Thomas J Petit, May 15, 2008)

Tom Petit passed away on Monday, August 4, 2008, after a long illness. Born October 22, 1942 in Doylestown, Ohio, Tom served honorably in U.S. Army Intelligence. He earned his BA in Photojournalism from Kent State University and his MFA in Photography from Rochester Institute of Technology.

Tom was a master teacher of Color Photography at Northeastern University and, of course at NESOP. Tom is survived by his former wife of 30 years, Carol Weber Petit, daughter Marie Petit, daughter Rosemarie Petit, son Edward Petit, daughter and son- in-law Lisa and Glenn Maxey, son Jason Petit, eleven grandchildren, sister Janet Petit Pollard, sister Patricia Petit Mong and brother-in-law Paul Mong, sister-in-law Janet Petit, step-brother Terry Willmott and sister-in- law Joyce Willmott, mother-in-law Eileen Weber, brother-in-law Daniel Weber and sister-in-law Jeanne Weber as well as numerous nieces and nephews.

For over 30 years, Tom’s wisdom, kindness and support had been a bright spot at NESOP and in the hearts of so many that had the distinct honor to know and work with him. In his personal image-making, Tom was not simply skilled, but fearless in his honesty and vulnerability. His willingness to share his personal and artistic challenges with others and to continue learning as a photographer inspired so many. He pushed his students to and beyond their creative limits in their photography–helping them find the strength to explore and bring their unique voices to the medium. We will forever hear Tom’s sage advice: “Trust the process.” He has permanently touched our hearts and minds, and he will be deeply missed.

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Caleb Interviews Steph: Part 2

September 23, 2008 · 1 Comment

1) The ghost of Joseph Nicéphore Niépce visits you in the night and leads you to a buried treasure of 100,000 Suiss francs (why Suiss francs? I have no idea) that can only be spent on photography (no paying off student loans). How do you spend the approximately $23,638?

Wow, I wish this was real! Because it’s so tempting (I want a Leica M8 so badly), I first came up with a huge list of equipment I want. Then I decided to diversify my spending. So with $9,000, I could upgrade my DSLR outfit, plus get another camera I’m dying to have for personal work. I think that’s pretty generous, equipment-wise. I would probably never get to do that again, so I can’t resist. And I’ve been shooting with the same DSLR for over 2 years, since before I went to school. It’s definitely time to replace it.

I would use the next $9,000 to support my documentary projects, until it runs out. Mainly to cover getting to and from NH all the time to shoot at Twist of Fate Farm (I don’t have a car – I take a bus!), and to get myself back to both the West Bank and Guatemala in the next year, to continue projects I’ve started in each of those places.

With the last $2,638, I would get myself to as many portfolio reviews as possible, and get a killer dreamy website.

OK, that’s just off the top of my head. Ask me again next week and I’ll have a completely different plan, like wanting to spend most of it on marketing, or taking a workshop.

2) What location or event would you most love to document right now and why?

My plan for the last 6 months was to be back in the West Bank documenting the Palestinian olive harvest this October and November. I spent a couple months there as a solidarity/human rights worker between 2005 and 2006, and planned to return once I was finished with school, to both continue that work and also to shoot. I recently had to cancel my trip because of funding, and so during the harvest I’m really going to miss being there.

I learned during the harvest in 2006, that even though protections are supposedly (legally) in place for Palestinian farmers to access and harvest their land, free of violence and harassment, that doesn’t necessarily translate in actions. I witnessed situations beyond the imaginations of many who could not be there, alongside families suffering and surviving on a daily basis. I want to do what I can to make sure their stories don’t go unnoticed. I can’t make it this year, but I’ll definitely return when I can.

3) Can photography change the world? Can it change anything?

I ask myself that constantly, and I’m sure I’m not the only one. It was actually the subject of my grad school Capstone Project, and I don’t even think I answered the question after all that writing. I think of things said by James Nachtwey* and Larry Towell** and others, and I think about the situations I’ve been in that I desperately hope my photos would transform, and the things I wouldn’t know about the world if it wasn’t for photographs, and I still don’t know.

I do believe that images are a hugely significant part of our understanding of society and the world. I imagine news and stories being vastly different without photographs, and myself and others not paying as much attention, or unable to relate, because of it.

I don’t think a photograph or photography alone can make much change, but I do see photography as an important part of that work, as a more visceral form of documentation, and as a part of changing our culture. All change is slow. A single protest, book, or even election won’t solve all the world’s problems either. But every aspect of making change needs to play a part, whether it’s organizing, policy-making, education/consciousness, service, or creating the culture of change. I see photography as being a part of education and culture-making.

We often relate more to the visual than the written. For example, seeing another person’s face forces us to relate, or try to relate, to their life. In a video, the short moment of a powerful facial expression may disappear and be replaced with something else, in less than a second, as it occurred. A photograph taken at the right time to provoke the most emotion, holds that moment of time in place as long as the image lasts.

There are examples of photographers who’s work contributed to change. Lewis Hine and the photographers of the Farm Security Administration, are well-known examples. People were talking about child laborers and poor farmers when they made their work. There were statistics and articles then. But it was images that drove the messages home to many. Today there is less that hasn’t been photographed yet, unlike those days, but images are so much a part of where we get information – I think we sometimes unconsciously rely on them.

So my answer is no… not alone. But yes, it can.

* “For me, the strength of photography lies in its ability to evoke a sense of humanity. If war is an attempt to negate humanity, then photography can be perceived as the opposite of war and if it is used well it can be a powerful ingredient in the antidote to war.”
–James Nachtwey

** “…we must address the social and political contradictions of our time. I believe photography can be part of the process. . . . it cannot change anything, but it can be part of the process for change, even if that change is personal.”
–Larry Towell

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Toledano again

September 23, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I told myself when I started writing in this blog that I wouldn’t become one of those bloggers who simply passes along the same info and links that dozens of other photo blogs are passing along, but this time I can’t resist (in case for some reason this is news to you).  I heart Mr. Toledano, and you should, too.  Check out this new series, America – The Gift Shop:

(click to enter his site)


Abu Ghraib coffee table. Copyright © Phillip Toledano

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My work featured

September 22, 2008 · Leave a Comment

As I’m trying to prepare for a job interview on little sleep and with a cold I just came down with, I was surprised this morning by some good news.

Andrew Gray, who runs GlobalCompassion.com, is featuring 9 images and a statement from my series This Family/Esta Familia on the site for this week. Please stop by and check it out.

Also a thank you to Andrew, for selecting my work.

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More on the NESOP 40th anniversary show opening

September 20, 2008 · Leave a Comment

The opening at NESOP was a great time last night. On a kind of amusing note, even though the show has been up all month, I just realized last night that my photo hadn’t been hung. I couldn’t find it anywhere. It turns out that after I dropped it off, it was somehow not transferred to the right folks, and was found at the beginning of the night in the gallery closet. It was more funny than awful, and a big thanks to those who helped to track it down and hang it up right away!

Of course Caleb’s photos in the previous post tell the story much better.

It was great to see a lot of people after a few months of post-graduation work and existential stress, and a bit of isolation. I can’t wait to be a teaching assistant this fall and start spending some more time in this community again.

In the next week and a half I’m doing Jamaica Plain Open Studios and then immediately after moving to a new apartment. I have a lot to do in that time, but once I get through it, I’m excited to redesign my website, so it makes more sense for some of my work, and to start a new project I’ve been daydreaming about.

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NESOP opening

September 19, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I’ve found my print!

But Steph can’t find hers!

We look everywhere.

There it is! (After we harass some folks and it’s found… IN A CLOSET.)

Steph is hung. Er, her picture is.

Back home again, my girlfriend takes my picture.

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show, moon

September 18, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I know Steph has already said this, but I’ll remind everyone. Tomorrow (well, today at this point of the night) is Steph and my Alumni Show opening at NESOP. If you want to see some kickass art and enjoy some scintillating conversation before going out for the night, we’ll be at NESOP from 6-9. See you there.

Unrelatedly, the moon last night:

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scanning disaster

September 16, 2008 · Leave a Comment

Tonight was one of those awful nights where everything goes wrong, and after 4 hours of scanning and countless computer crashes, I have almost nothing to show for my efforts. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

© Caleb Cole

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Show opening

September 15, 2008 · Leave a Comment

Caleb and I each have a photograph in the most recent show at NESOP’s Center for Photographic Exhibitions. The opening is this Friday evening. More details are in the sidebar.

NESOP’s 40th Anniversary: An Exhibition of Alumni Work
September 1 to October 3, 2008

Opening reception:
Friday, September 19, 2008
6-9pm

Join us in celebrating our 40th year by honoring the esteemed alumni who helped us reach this milestone. View the varied, inspiring and dynamic work of our graduates, old and new.

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on blogging

September 14, 2008 · 2 Comments

Looks like the blog/one of the writers of the blog You Call This Photography is finished with a bang:

“[...] it does seem this is all about “who you know”, and spreading the word about “work I like” gets one noticed more then “actual work itself”. Which makes me and some of my readers sick to our stomachs. So please please stop it already. Concentrate on your work, stop the circle jerk.”

So I can definitely see where this is coming from but I have some alternate thoughts.  I do see that a lot of blogs endlessly link to and praise each other and I do think the mutual masturbation of blogging (a better metaphor I think) does often get one noticed and get one a degree of notoriety that could be nearly independent of one’s work.  Fine.  But blogging (both reading and writing) is for me more than a fame game or something to do instead of making my own work.  If it weren’t for photo blogs I would never have discovered some of the photographers who are now my favorite artists, the ones who inspire me to work more, work harder, work better.  Reading how other people process and deal with different aspects of their art-making helps me to think about my own art-making process and about how I’m building my career.  Blogs are one of the ways that I concentrate on my work.

I guess I’m just wondering what this sick-to-our-stomach feeling is really about.  Networking and schmoozing and marketing/self-promotion have always been a huge part of the art world (all business, really), like it or not, and blogs (in part) are just another way of doing that.  So what is the desired alternative?  What does concentrating on your work really mean?

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TJ Proechel

September 13, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I look forward to new posts at the Dreamboats Blog because I want to see more of TJ Proechel’s series on murder sites in Baltimore. Much like Philip Toledano’s “Days with My Father,” the combination of images and simple text really gets to me. Here is one quick example, though you should really go look at everything that’s posted to get a better idea of what the series is about:


Alexander Robertson-El © TJ Proechel

On October 30, 2007 Police received several calls that there was a shooting in the 700 block of Bartlett Avenue in the East Baltimore Midway neighborhood. When they arrived they found Alexander Robertson-El, a 26-year-old African-American man, lying on the sidewalk bleeding. He had been shot and died at Hopkins Hospital less than an hour later.

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The PRC Portfolio

September 9, 2008 · 1 Comment

I love my internship, in part because since The PRC Portfolio Exhibition has gone up I’ve gotten to spend a lot of time looking at this print:

© Jocelyn Lee

I’m kind of obsessed with it. You should really go see it in person, along with the rest of the beautiful prints at the PRC.

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